CONVERSATION WITH PETE WILKIE
AN OUTLOOK-- TAKE ON A WAY OF LIVING, HELP ON DAY TO DAY LIVING IN THE PRESENT WORLD / UK
LITTLE TIPS AND REMINDERS ON HOW TO KEEP BALLANCED
BETWEEN EARNING A LIVING AND KEEPING A CALM CENTERED AND ENJOYING WHAT IS IMPORTANT TO YOU IN YOUR LIFE ON EARTH.
THIS IS A STORY OF A PERSON FROM A SPACE THAT YOU MIGHT RECOGNISE, HAVE A “THAT’S SOUNDS JUST LIKE ME” MOMENT. A JOURNEY THAT IS INCREDIBLE IN THAT ITS ALL TRUE, TO GIVE HOPE, TO KNOW THAT IT IS POSSIBLE TO COME THROUGH WHATEVER IS PLACED OR PERCIVED TO BE IN YOUR WAY, LIFE.
A FEW TIPS. ON THE WAY LITTLE POINTERS THAT ARE SIMPLE TO USE OR ACKNOWLEGE TO KEEP THE PURPOUS OF LIFE ON THE PLANET. WHICH IS TO ENJOY THE MOMENT ENJOY THE JOURNEY FOR THE JOURNEY IS ALL THERE IS AT THIS TIME FOR YOU.
TO ACKNOWLEGE PAST LIVES, AND THAT PAST LIVES CAN affect….AS THE SAYING GOES… “YOUR CHARACTER IS YOUR DESTINY”. WHAT IS YOUR CHARACTER……think about that……a lot.
HAS SOME OF THE PAST COME WITH YOU INTO THIS LIFE OR HAS EARLY LIFE EXPERIENCED FORGED HOW YOU ARE.
HOW DO YOU DEFINE IT.. CHARACTER TRAITS.. GOOD ONES AND ONES THAT CAUSE YOU TO BAIL OUT INTO THE DEEP TROUGHS OF LIFE. MONEY.. RELATIONSHIPS.. EMOTIONS.
From this previous life to healing people seeing auras and generally helping fellow man have become part of my daily life.
The story begins……..
THE JOURNEY STARTS.
I SAT ON THE END OF THE BED IN MY ROOM, ALL THE OTHER ROOMS IN MY FLAT WERE RENTED OUT TO OTHER PEOPLE, AS IT TURNED OUT THAT HAD BEEN DRAWN TO THE HOUSE FOR THERE own HEALING. THEY HAD NO IDEA WHAT MENTAL STATE THERE LAND-LORD WAS IN.
THE SHOOT GUN CAME OUT OF THE CASE IS WAS ONE OF TREASURED POSSETIONS.. HA POSSETIONS!!..ALWAYS KEPT IN OIL WITH THE GLOVE AND CLEANING KIT ALL SNUGG IN THE VELVET LINEND CASE, AS I PUT THE BARRELLS TO THE BUT AND CLIPPED THE BARRELL STOCK TO THE UNDER TRAY ALL WAS CALM, NEXT THE SHELLS TWO SHELLS ONE IN EACH OF THE OVER AND UNDER BARRELLS SITTING THERE JUST SITTING, 20 PENCE WORTH- NOW IN A BAD SPACE MOST OF RECENT LIFE HAD BEEN A BLUR, A LIE, NIGHT WAS DAY, DAY WAS NIGHT IT WAS LITRALLY IN THE MOMENT OF MINUTE BY MINUTE SURVIVAL LIFE HAD BEEN A BITCH NO LOVE GIVEN AND NO LOVE TAKEN A LONELY, LONELY SPACE..HARD,, HARD WORK MAINIC WORK MEGLOMANIA, EXSTREME ANGER, HURTNESS A FREAK THIS WAS NOT A LIFE THIS WAS A COMPLETELY TOTALLY NASTY PLACE, THAT THERE WAS NO WAY OUT.
THE GUN WAS IN MY HANDS IT HAD BEAUTIFUL BALANCE …THAT WAS IT, BUTT ON THE CARPET MOUTH OVER THE BARRELL END FINGER ON TRIGER THOUGHTS THOUSANDS OF SCREEMING THOUGHTS NOT MUCH EMOTION
ALL IT WAS, WAS NOW DO I HAVE WHAT IT TAKES TO TAKE THE MINUTE DISCISSION TO PUSH THE TRIGGER IT WOULD ALL GO AWAY IN A HEART BEAT THOUGHT ABOUT THE MESS DID NOT CARE THE PAIN WOULD GO AWAY RELEIFE AT LAST NO PAIN NO HURT.
COULD NOT DO IT…DISASTER ANOTHER PROBLEM NO GUTS NO COURAGE RIGHT THAT’S IT MORE THOUGHTS SCREEMING THROUGH MY HEAD THERE ONLY ONE THING LEFT
I HAVE TO CHANGE.. CHANGE.. CHANGE AND START RIGHT NOW CHANGE AND MEAN IT. IN ONE HEART BEAT.I HAD HERD THAT YOU COULD CHANGE YOURSELF IN A HEART BEAT, IT WAS THAT TIME.
WHAT WAS I TO CHANGE, WELL NOTHING IS RIGHT IN MY LIFE NOTHING, SO IT DOES NOT MATTER WHAT I CHANGE, I WOULD HAVE TO CHANGE IT ALL, TO WHAT! WELL WHATEVER YOU HAVE BEEN DOING UP TO NOW CHANGE IT, IT HAS NOT WORKED SO CHANGE IT
I STUMBLED ON A BOOK “HOW TO HEAL YOUR LIFE BY LOUISE HAYES”
I STARTED TO READ ONE OF THE FIRST THINGS WAS TO LOOK IN THE MIRROR TO SEE WHO WAS THERE, WELL IT TOOK SIX MONTHS TO SEE WHO WAS THERE I WAS 38 YEARS OLD AND HAD NEVERS REALLY SEEN MY SELF IN THE MIRROR SIX MONTHS OF BREAKING DOWN.. COULD NOT SEE THOUGH THE TEARS, WHAT A SPACE, FINNALY IT HAPPENED I COULD LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND A SAW ME WELL I THOUGHT NOT BAD NO HAIR BUT NOT BAD..NEED TO CHEER.. UP TRIED SMILLING THAT WAS A JOKE HOW TO SMILE I WAS 38 AND DID NOT HAVE A SMILE THAT CAME FROM LOVE AND ENJOYMENT...FROM ME IN A GENUINE WAY THAT TOOK PRACTCE BUT ACTUALLY YOUR NOT TO BAD A LOOKING GUY GOOD JOB THE HAIRS GONE I WOULD LOOK LIKE THE MAD PROFESSOR WITH A HEAD FULL OF HAIR THAT GREY. STILL PROGRESS WAS BEING MADE TIME WAS STILL IRREVALENT WHAT WAS IMPORTTANT NOW WAS ME YES ME FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE ON EARTH IT WAS OK TO BE SELFISH AND DO WHAT I NEEDED.
WHAT WAS KEY TO THIS MASSIVE CHANGE? WELL A SMALL LITTLE PAPER BLOCK, YES, “ POST- IT- NOTES” THEY SAVED MY LIFE.
I HAD POST IT NOTES STUCK EVERYWHERE, THE MAIN ONES ON THE DOOR AND DOOR FRAME THE WAY OUT OF MY ROOM.
“THINK TO KEEP SAFE”………….WAS ALL THEY SAID.
EVERYONE OF YOU HAS A BRAIN MORE POWERFULL THAN ALL THE COMPUTERES LINKED TOGETHER ONE THOUGHT YOU ONLY NEED ONE BUT ACTUALLY YOU CAN HAVE MANY THOUGHTS IN A NANO SECOND “THINK TO KEEP SAFE,” WAS THAT THOUGHT.
WHATS YOUR THINKING…. WHERE AM I GOING OH!
THE WIDE, WIDE WORLD ITS DEFFINATLEY NOT SAFE OUT THERE NEARLY GOT KILLED OUT THERE, NO ONE CARED EITHER. I REALLY DO NEED TO THINK TO KEEP SAFE. ITS NOT SAFE FOE LITTLE PETE TO GO INTO THE WIDE WORLD
THINGS WERE PROGRESSING NOW LOOKING IN THE MIRROR WAS GREAT NEED TO WORK OUT BUT OK. THAT COULD WAIT.
BUT WHAT WAS THE KEY TO THINKING TO KEEP SAFE, THINK OF WHAT, SOMETHING WAS A TRIGGER OH THAT WORD AGAIN WELL AS THEY SAY OUT OF ONE COMES ANOTHER AND TRIGGER WAS WHAT I NEEDED NOW.. THERE WAS THIS SOMETHING THAT ALWAYS JUST HAPPENED I WOULD FLY OFF THE HANDLE GET REALLY ANGRY NO TOLERENCE OF OTHERS ALL THE ATRIBUTES OF AN ANTI SOCIAL
AND WHAT HAD HAPPENED WITH THE OLD PETE HAD TO CHANGE THERE WAS THE PROMISE I HAD MADE TO MY SELF.
CHARACTER WHAT WAS AN ELEMENT OF CHARACTER THAT WOULD HELP BE ANOTHER KEY TO THE JOURNEY.
IT TOOK A WHILE FOR ME EVEN TO UNDERSTAND THE WORD CHARACTER AND MORE TO THE SAYING “IT’S YOUR DESTINY”
WELL SOMETHING INTERFEARED WITH THIS.
LITTLE PETE WHAT! YES LITTLE PETE
LOOK BIG PETE CAN HANDLE NEARLY ANYTHING THAT LIFE HAS TO THROW AT HIM BUT LITTLE PETE ONLY HAS A LIMITED TAKE ON LIFE ODD LITTLE BITS PUT IN THERE BY GOOD INTENTIONED PARENTS AND OTHERS BUT LEFT YOU ONLY WITH ONE LASTING PROCESS AND OTHERS THAT CAME FROM PAST LIVES. Known as filters.
EMOTIONALITY YOU’RE TOO EMOTIONAL, THERES A TIME AND A PLACE AND THE BIG WIDE WORLD IS NOT THE PLACE TO TAKE A LITTLE PERSON OUT WHO DOES NOT KNOW HOW TO CONTROL EMOTION OR EVEN PROCESS SOME OF THE SHIT THAT EVERY DAY LIFE THROWS AT ONE.
IF YOU TAKE EMOTIONAL RESPONSE OUT OF THE EQUATION LIFE CAN BE QUITE SWEET, HOW?
THINK TO KEEP SAFE = THINK ABOUT WHERE YOU ARE WHAT COMPANY YOUR IN AND WHAT’S ABOUT, WHERE YOUR GOING IF YOUR GOING TO AN KNOWN POTENTIAL OR UNKNOWN POTENTIAL MEETING WITH DISRUPTIVE PEOPLE THE KEY IS TO LEAVE LITTLE PETE YOUR LITTLE YOU , AT HOME, I USED TO GO AND MEET MY X GIRL FRIEND THIS HAD THE POTENTIAL TO UPSET ME (get emotional) SO I USED TO LEAVE LITTLE PETE TUCKED UP IN BED, AND I WOULD SAY I LEAVE YOU HERE AS IT NOT SAFE FOR EITHER OF US IF YOU COME ALONG. IT WORKED I TOOK THE EMOTIONAL ELLEMENT OUT OF THE EQUATION IT WORKED I FELT GREAT NO TURMOIL NO ROLLER COASTER EMOTIONS FANTASTIC.
LIFE WAS GETTING GOOD, POST IT PADS REALLY WORKED SO I USED THEM FOR ALSORTS OF PROMTS TO MAKE SURE EMOTIONAL RESPONSE WAS NOT PART OF DAY TO DAY LIFE, ALL THE USUAL NITTY GRITTY ANGELS JUST WASHED AWAY. LITTLE PETE WAS LEFT OUT OF CONFRONTATIONAL LIFE.
MEETING PEOPLE BECAME SAFE FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE
I USED REFLECTIVE CONVERSATION TO GET ME OUT OF A JAM, YOU KNOW IN CONVERSATION YOU JUST REFLECT BACK THE SUBJECT IN A QUESTION = GOING TO THE SUPER MARKET WITHOUT GETTING A PAINIC ATTACK WAS MIND BLOWING I ACTUALLY DID NOT MIND BEING IN A QUE AT THE CHECKOUT. 39 YEARS OLD NOT BAD HEY!!
DRIVING BECAME FUN JOUNEYS BECAME EASIER IF I FOUND MY SELF NOT HAVING AN EASY JOUNEY I WOULD PULL OVER THIS WOULD PUT ME IN ANOTHER TIME SLOT 1 OR 2 MINUTES LATER BUT AN EASIER DRIVE THIS THINKING TO KEEP SAFE REALLY WORKS.
I HAD NOT BECOME A CONTROL FREAK BUT JUST A HUMAN BEING, THAT USED THE MOST AWESOME TOOL ON THE PLANET YOUR BRAIN
YOU ARE AWESOME, YOU KNOW, ALL OF YOU AND NEVER LET ANY ONE TELL YOU OTHEREWISE. “AWESOME.”
LIFE WAS GETTING BETTER I WAS SEEING THINGS CLEARER LEARNING EVERY DAY IN A MASSIVE WAY I COULD SEE AND FEEL THE CHANGE IN ME I CHANGED THE WAY I MADE DISISIONS I ACTUALLY THOUGHT ABOUT IT BEFORE MAKING A DISSISSION JUST A NANO SECOND MADE A DIFFERENCE I TOOK THE ARROGANCE OUT OF LIFE CHANGING DISISSIONS THAT TOOK ME DOWN THE PATH TO SELF DISTRUCTION I WAS NOT RIGHT ALL THE TIME BUT THE ROLLER COASTER WAS OUT IT. I TOOK THE TOPS OF THE WAVES AND ALSO THE LOWS.. OH SO LOW TROUGHS OUT OF LIFE SO I WAS LEFT IN THIS MIDDLE BAND WHICH FELT GOOD VERY GOOD. FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE I FELT SAFE NOT JUST LITTLE PETE. BUT BIG PETE.
LIMITED BELEIFS ASSUMTIONS ABOUT YOURSELF THINKING OH IM SO STUPID WERE BANISHED LISTEN I DON’T THINK ANY OF YOU ARE STUPID SO WHY SHOULD YOU, DON’T JUDGE YOURSELF AGAINST OTHERS WHO IS TO SAY WHAT IS AND WHAT IS NOT ENJOY WHO YOU ARE, AND I WAS, I HAD BECOME MY BEST FRIEND.
I LEARNT HOW TO HOLD THE SILENCE………………WITH YOUR SELF AND OTHERS.
I TOOK ASSUMTION AND FANTISY OUT OF MY THOUGHTS.
IF YOU ASSUME SOMETHING, SO WHAT, IT IS JUST THAT ITS NOT REAL SO WHY PONDER OR GET INVOLVED WASTE ENERGY THOUGHTS THE SAME WITH FANTISY ITS NOT REAL DON’T LET IT BOTHER YOU , YOU CAN ONLY DEAL WITH REALITY THE WHATS RIGHT HERE IN FRONT OF YOU THAT IS FACTUAL here and now.
THIS IS THE THOUGHT pattern THAT WENT INTO HOW TO KEEP SAFE.
YOU WITH YOUR FANATASTIC BRAINS AND A NANO CAN CHANGE YOUR LIFE.
TRY TO ACKNOWLEDGE YOUR BELIEF SYTEMS ALSO HELPS. QUESTION YOUR ASSUMTIONS WHERE DO THEY COME FROM IS IT A “ BED ROCK BELIEF” THAT WAS PUT IN THERE BY SOME ONE OR A PRIEVIOUS EXPERIENCE. WE HAVE FILTERS WE USE ALL THE TIME WHEN SOME ONE TALKS TO YOU WE USE THESE FILTERS WITHOUT KNOWING TO MAKE DISSIONS. TO KEEP OURSELVES SAFE. WRONG TAKE THAT DATA SOMEONE TELLS TO YOU AS VIRGIN DATA, THEN PROCESS IT AND A THEN MAKE A DECISSION, SEE HOW THAT WORKS,, JUST BECAUSE SOMETHING HAPEND THE LAST TIME SOMETHING WAS DONE OR SAID. THE SAME REACTION DOES NOT HAVE TO BE TAKEN. TRUST THIS, IT WORKS..I USE A CEILING IN AN OLD COTTAGE WITH BEAMS ALL MY BEAMS HAVE TAGS LYING DOWN AND THEY ALL HAVE A LITTLE SOMETHING TO PROMT ME INTO A NANO THOUGHT TO KEEP ME SAFE FROM EMOTIONAL REACTIONS KEEP THE CONVESATION IN ADULT AND NOT FROM EMOTIONAL CHILD STATE OR ANGRY PERSON STATE.
STANDING BACK IN A CONVERSATION IS A GREAT HELP IT GIVES YOU MANY THINGS TIME TO LISTEN LOOK AND FEEL, MAINLY FEELING HOW YOU ARE, IT GIVES AN ENORMOUS AMOUNT OF INFO ABOUT EGO
AND HOW THE PERSON IS IN COMMUNICATION THIS IS A BIG TOOL.
IT HELPS TO PROTECT YOU AND ALLOWS CONFIDENCE TO GROW.
A MAJOR KEY IS “”TO BE IN YOUR FLOW AND NOT OTHERS””
YOUR LIFE IS YOUR LIFE, SO DO IT IN YOUR TIME AND FLOW SO YOUR HEART CAN SING, YOU SEE THIS WITH NEW LOVERS THERE HEARTS SING AND IT SHOWS, RADIATES FROM THEM, THEY CAN acheive ANYTHING IN THAT STATE.
One Major point to remember to maintaining a balance and stable flow to your life is to acknowledge the people around you and the people you meet, it is ok to cut some people out of your life as some are very disruptive and even use others to suck there energy to make them selves feel good, this even includes family members just because there family does not mean you have to be in there orbit, an easy way to find disruptive people is are there always putting you down
in small ways do they play games with you trying to be one up all the time scoring points against you, do they play the triangle game “persecutor, rescuer, victim” in conversation. These people are just bad news for your stability, the best way is not to enter there games by changing the topic or simply don’t be around them. Remember this you are only going to have a good time if you are around people who have a good time, its simple.
Be around quality people for a quality life.
This “Victim - Persecutor - Rescuer” triangle is a very disruptive thing have you ever found your self arguing over nothing, it ending up you feeling Sad, Mad and Lost well this is the one, don’t go there ever, it never ends up in a good place for either party.
Egos, play a massive part in our day to day life mixing with people, not only our own but trying to cope with others.
There is quiet an easy way to find out in conversation where someone’s ego is, ie are they trying to dominate you, get something from you or do you feel comfortable, are they just talking to you on and equal respectful basis. Which is where we should be. This is not to say that we don’t go to the other ego states, which are Parental, nurturing and critical, and Child, free and adaptive.
Parental Ego state, this can be the most damaging state domineering critical and angry aggressive putting you down humiliation all these things will come out in the communication and also be backed up buy body language. This is not a good place to speak or have a conversation with someone, if they are in the ego state and the conversation is important you have to try to get them out of this and to adult state, the other Parental state is nurturing which is quite normal if you are looking after someone who needs it but not if this is the mother hen type especially a woman who is in type being the nurturer the matriarch who uses the this state to manipulate, you but mainly to make herself feel good a safe place.
SO now with this new knowledge I was getting more confidence, that was real not a cover up, I was getting to know who I was and what I was and the WHO was the important bit, life was becoming fun and I started to enjoy , smile and could even look in the mirror It was like being free from the a prison of loneliness and anger.
So things started to change and quickly, no more roller coaster emotions with high, highs and very low lows.
This was very strange and kept me occupied thinking about the NANO second before making decisions and interactions with others, also spiritually things were happening.
Training myself to take what can be done in a “nano” second
Was paying off I was thinking about things rather than reacting emotionally. This was a big key to stable life.
So my advice is take some time to listen and then make a decision on the subject, this is the nano second as it takes that long, that’s all. As we all have the fastest most powerful computer in the world in our head we need to learn how to use it.
Strange things had happened to me during my life, as a kid I had dreams where I would be floating around, well I did not know where I was but there was nothing there just darkness with no tangible reference points it used to scare me, now I realize it was the cosmos, I have been there in adult life, in a loving embrace floating around in pure pure love, what a feeling, only once though.
I started to see things like people standing in doorways, and then on day I was invited to stand in on a convention so standing at the back I started to see Light, well it was
Where the people were standing on the stage if they moved I could see in bright light where they were standing this was such a shock I looked behind me to see who had the torch then I realized that if it was a torch there would be a shadow, except the shadow was light. At that time I learnt how I was looking it was the way I used my eyes focus, this lead me to practicing this and in the end I could see auras then colors not that I knew what the colors meant
I spoke to some one and they advised that the colors meant this if it was red and this if it was white. This never made sense to me, and did not matter.
I had some very strong meditations where a bright beam of light would enter my head or I would be bathed in a cloud of white light, this was all new to me. Something was going on!
These new skills were honed and I became very good at seeing auras, colors etc even the energy around trees and plants were seen this was making me more aware of nature and the universe. I became calmer. This was leading up to something, it was hard to come to terms with what was happening as it was not long ago that life was the pits.
I read lots of spiritual books and filled my brain up with all sorts of knowledge from feng shue to what we eat.
Life was changing fast then some strange events took place, which at the time overwhelmed me and frustrated me at the same time.
THEN it started “Healing”……………